I've given up on trying to push him away. Because no matter what, he will always come back.
Yet another part is also wishing & praying that he really doesn't go away.
Contradicting, i know.

But i just can't help it. This heart still longs for him. This hand still longs for his touch. This lips still longs for his kisses. It ain't as easy as that trying to make myself believe that, the more i try pushing him away, the more he'll go.

Then again, i don't really want him to know how much i feel for him. How much i don't want him to go. Because then, till when is he gonna play this game. Because i will only let myself be the girl he'll fall back to whenever he needs me. I will only make myself be his "mistress", never his "baby".

Sigh. The complications of this love triangle is too complicated even for Romeo to understand. Lucky he killed himself. Or my best bet is, he'll go crazy if caught in this situation.