What did i do wrong this time huh? You never pick up my calls, never reply my msgs..
What?! Are you out for revenge? Just because i did it to you once, so now you're doing it back to me uh?

Pls lah Haiqal.. Your maturity level is way beyond your age,and yet you're doing this to me..
You make me worry about you.. You make me feel restless..Tell me truthfully,what else do u want from me huh?
I have done almost everything you wanted me to do, and yet you're doing this to me..


OMG!!! i seriously dunno what else to do..
But if this is how you want it to be, so be it..
I can't say anything much other than, THANKS UH!!



Is "heartbroken" going to be here all the time? I wish not, for its hurting so bad..

It's hard being wif someone younger than u.. He may not be dat immature.. But he CAN be immature at times.. Understand? Tk paham sudah.. Lols..

Haiqal may be young but his thinking is not of sumone his age.. But there will be times when he does act his age.. And dats when i seriously hate it.. But as long as we're doing ok.. I'm fine with dat..

For now.. I have thrown away 90% of other guys dat i know. Only to be wif Haiqal.. Yeah.. who could have ever guessed that my heart would go to this young 'un.. Hahax. Even i never tot i would go for sumone younger den me, what more sumone 3 yrs younger.. Yes people.. Haiqal is only 18... Blablabla.. So wat.. My life or urs nie? Sheesh!! Kpo people just gets on my nerve..


So pretty much my life story now is only revolving around Haiqal. Except for the occasional "kenal2"... Lol.
(Mampos aku kalau Haiqal dpt tau.. Hahaha.)
No lah.. Kenal2 mcm mane pun.. Jiwe tetap satu..
Lols..


Ntahlah kan.. no matter how i tried so hard to be a play girl back, i just can't.. Cause it seems dat it's not in my blood anymore. (too many "setia pada satu" bfs nye psl uh nie.)
Oh well..


I seriously dunno wat to update about.. Hmm..
Other times den!
I off to lala-land! Cause will be meeting Baby Haiqal in the morning!! Wee!

Baby Haiqal is so getting on my nerves.. And so is Nazrul.. And Irman too.. Mak kauu!! You guys act as if i'm still not fragile. Fcuk lah.. Don't make me say things u rather not hear. Cause once this trap opens, it will hit you hard till you won't even know what hit you. So pls, treat me with the respect i deserve and i'll give it right back to you.. Don't make me waste my respect to some other shits. Yes. Shits. All you fcuking pathetic low-life are not much better than shits. So do you really deserve the respect that i have been giving to u? I don't think so.. Better make me change my mind while you still can.

Baby Haiqal, like i said before.. You made fall so deep for you den you let me go without catching. What am i?! A fcuking doll?? You want me, you come to me. You don't want me, you just leave hanging. Come on. I can do so much better and yet i chose u. Like for real, you're not even qualified for my respect. So pls, treat me with respect.. or these 2 feet will just walk away. I can't deny the fact dat i do love you. But stopi it ehk dgn prangai childish kau.Irritating tau tk?

And to u Irman, wat else do you want from me? You have a fcuking wife, and here you are chasing me. I don't want to be the cause of your breakdown,i don't want to be the cause of destructing your marriage.. You're old enough to know what's good for you. But pls, stop bothering me. Work is work.. and you know how i am when i do my work. Pls lah.. Your daughter is only 2mths+ , and kau tgh main giler.. Siak uh! Karma has it's way off showing without telling,Irman. And you'll nvr know when it'll hit you.


GOSH!! one after another they come. Will this never cease? Watever lah kan..

A fren i've lost.. Due to some minor conflicts. But wats btwn us right now can't be undone. Work seems different to see him passing by,ignoring each other.. Pretending each other doesn't exist. You were one of my closest buds. One of whom i considered to be my very best. I shared my deepest darkest secrets with you.. I shared tears with you. You were always der for me when i was down.. And i was der for you too when you needed someone. But things changed in an instance.. And now we don't even make eye contact. Everytime we crossed paths,tears roll down. Cause i can't believe i've lost a great fren. The chemistry btwn me and you was much more than what normal fren feel. We had a bond. A bond much stronger than possibly could..


Mamat, I really miss you dear fren.. How i wish things weren't like this. How i wish we could be the same as before.. I Miss you Rahmat.. I really do.

Oh really?? For your info, orang yg panggil aku hotstuff okehh!! Alamak brader.. Lu kalau da jealous, ckp je uhh! I don't mind.. Cause i don't give a damn!!! Lols..

Oh gosh..
Mr Switz is mad at me cause he found out bout Haiqal.. Oh watever!! I still love my baby Haiqal!!

Wooohooooooooo!!!
Bitch is back and i don't give a damnnnn!!!

WATEVERRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alamakkkkkk! Looks like have to put Mr Switz out of the picture seyyy. Haiz.. Cause now ku da kepunyaan org siiihhhhh!! Ku kepunyaan BABY HAIQAL kuuu!! hehe.. Yeah! Yeah! He asked me to be his Valentine.. And i said yes. And now i have sumone special.. Yeah2! Sape Haiqal kamu tanye??





HAAAAAA!! Ni lah BABY HAIQAL kuuu!! Heee!!

Heee.. Alahhh.. MR Switz lmbt sgt luhhhh! Hahaha. Tkpe lahh.. Haiqal is equally cute too

Eh2! Jak biler lah Tazzy pandai ade satu je ehh??? Wakakakakak!! I am such a bitch. Oh well! Sape tk kenal aku kannnnn!!

WATEVERRR!!! and i love my BABY HAIQAL!!

HOT kan? HOT kan my MR Switz??!! Hahax!

Eh!wait2!
How bout this one??

OH MY GOSHHH!!! Tazzy is torn between 2 gorgeous hunks lah seyyy!! How niii?? Haiyo!!

Oh shit! Make it 5, not 2! Damn!! Tazzy is sure gonna get in trouble lah seyyyyyy!!!!

Yeah2! I'm back.. Hahahaha! Farid's coming back within 2 or 3 weeks.. He said he'll call me once he reached.. So have to wait lah horrr!




And now! Lo and behold! My Mr SWITZ!!

CUTE KANNNNN!!! Heeee! Yana is so in love lah siakksss! Weeeeeeeee!! Hehehe!

Mr F??? No.. No.. Mr F is still in US but he's coming back soon. Mentang2 da tau aku single.. WOIII!! Dgn pantas dia nk dtg alik. Hahax!

No lah.. Mr Switz is sumone who i recently got to know.. Cute guy.. But very the eksyen.. Like want to kena gigit only.. Hahaha. Adelah.. Nak tgk who?? Wait horrrr! hahax! Suke siak aku kasi korang tension! Lolx!


Reading my blog, through my past posts.. And i realised that it all contained about Rizal.. It was either about how i much i love him, or how much i hated him.. From now on, it will no longer contain him.. As he is a thing of the past.. I'm not being mean.. But he is.. Since he himself has found a new girl, why should i trouble myself bothering about him when his gf can bother bout him... I am much better off concentrating bout guys who really care bout me.. HUH! hahaha.



"Rizal, a word of advise.. Don't treat your current girl the way you treated me.. Or you'll end up living your life searching for a wife.. I gave you too many chances but you never did see them.. Till i finally gave up, and dats when you blame it all on me. I don't care who's at fault.. All i know was, i've never been happier.. Yes, i do miss you at times.. I do think of you. But tell me, who doesn't think of somebody they love right? Common reactions of human nature.. Just pls, treat your girl right.. Cause as what i've seen, you have had so many chances in getting yourself a wife, it was only dat you never grab it. You always let it slipped by till it was too late.. As for me, don't trouble yourself in worrying about me.. If i wanna do a new tattoo or take drugs, it doesnt concern u anymore.. Cause right now, I'm living MY life. A life in which i always smiling and always happy. So take care, be happy... No hard feelings aite? Cheers!"

Suka sak korang ckp aku "Hawtstuff"..
Siak uh..
Tazz lom jadi hawtstuff lagi lahh..

Kla2..
Kalau aku Hawtstuff kan, korang semua giler uhh! Lols.
Eh, nk ckp Hawtstuff pun boleh lah seyy.. psl kan, each time a day has gone.. i'll end up with 3-4 new numbers.. Wakakakka..
But kan, my heart is so far away sey.. in Switzerland.. And it's coming back today.. Hehe. Nak tau sape?? Heee.. NANAK BILANGGGG!!! Malulah saya..

"Awak, come back early k.. Ade org kat sini rindu dgn awak sey.. Hee. And pls bring along dat BamBam! Cause i nk gigit pipi dia lagi lahhhh!!"

Do you a favour?? Can.. No prob..
But will you pls do me a favour 1st by getting out of my life??!!
Tolong lah.. Even if i'm enjoying myself,at least i still take care of my family, of my baby girl.. What about you? How long has it been since you saw pipit and didit huh? Ever tot of dem?? Gaaahh.. And you still have the cheek to say, "Think of phia."
BULLSHITS! all that comes out from your bloody trap is bullshit. Kau da tkyah ambik kisah pasal hidop aku k, cause i'm happy with it.. You're only being kpo,cause it hurts you seeing me happy. Bla lah mat! you found you're "Mary Jane" pe.. Hahaha.. I wonder how many girls you've said that too..


And pls lah.. As if i got nothing better to do than go around telling everyone it was your fault..
I don't have to tell them anything, they got eyes to see.. And they believe what they see..
EGO! EGO! EGO! everyone has them.. But so far, i believe your's to be to be the biggest of them all.. Biler matair da ilang kan diri, baru nk mintak maaf, nak ckp sorry.. Tapi tu pun skejap je..
Grow up Rizal, you're not getting any younger.. If you were really serious about me, you should have saved up for our mariage. But yet, see for yourself.. Cashless and always hungry. Grow up Rizal, Grow up.

Wahh.. Wahh.. Wahh.. Menjadi krg biler aku ckp psl club ehkk! Siow tol.. Hahaha.
Jom ahhh!! IKOT AHHHH!!! Lols!


Why can't u just admit dat you're already have sumone new? Scared i'll forget u? Scared i'll nvr contact u anymore.. Wat's past is past, it can never be undone.. So move on, and stop wasting ur time with me.. Give me the key, so dat i can be free from this chains dat u have put around me.. So dat i can move on with my life.. So dat i can, for once, have fun without thinking of u.. So dat,i can release u from my heart... Give me the signal.. That you no longer need me.. Pls..

Even if it will hurt me, just do it.. Cause i dnt want to spend my entire life waiting for something dat is not going to happen.. Wat we went thru was a thing of the past.. And letting go of our past is the best thing to do.. So pls.. RELEASE ME...



I am so going to get drunk this Sat! y? Cause it marks the day dat i have become me again! Old peeps, new peeps... See ya derrr!
Fly!! Call aku lahh!! aku rindu krg2 semua!! Jom kita go mabok like the old days jom!! and pls, jgn ajak si pendek tu eh! Wakakakaka!! CALL ME LAH SIAKSSS!!

Saturday night was spent at ST JAMES POWERHOUSE... Was supposed to be celebrating NanaLush's birthday but ade org tu tk jadi pulakkkk!! Geram je tauu.. The night was spent away with me running around the club, disturbing people and always being on the podium..
Yes! I'm a sucker for podiums. Every club i go to,the chances of me getting on the podium is always 100%.. Not to show off or whatever but to just enjoy myself..
And the morning was ended with me having 2 signatures on my hand.. Wakakakak! I so love disturbing the bartenders there! ((Fitri, Lain kali sign lagi bnyk2 kkk!!))

Oh yah! I met ANIZ and MUS there!! Yes! ANIZ, my gothic fren la siakk! Hahahaha. Siak uh aniz. Bnyk2 tempat, kat situ jugak aku nmpk kau eh! Jom! Jom! Sat go MOS JOMMMMMM!!!


"I am going from bad to worse after this "breakup".. I'm back to my old ways of clubbing every week again.. "

NEXT WEEK!! THURS DOUBLE O! SAT MOS!!
Sape nak join?!! WooooHooooo!!

So u were only out to get revenge huh? Well, you won.. So now will you pls get out of my life forever?
Your "BAYBOO" is dead.. And so is this heart.. Cause all you ever did was play with it..


Oh what the heck!
GUYS!! Come on! I'm a single bitch! Get your party shoes on! We're gonna have fun!! Clubbing cures away stress. Anybody on for this Sat? Call me up!!