Why is it when you think you are ready to commit, to settle down.. All of a sudden, problems come up?
Just when i thought i was ready to spend my life with you, to make you my future husband, this story came up.
You said you and her were no longer in contact,
but why is it that you said to her,you and me were no longer in contact?
You broke my heart real bad.
I couldn't believe what i was hearing. From her.
And i couldn't believe you would say that only now u believe i was serious with you.
Why now?
Why when all these things came up then u said u believe me?
Why not then, when i showed you how much i loved you..
When i showered you with all my love?
Why not THEN?

Do you know that i've told my mum how much i loved you.
How much you meant the world to me.
How much i wanted to make you my Husband?
Do you know all that?
I bet u didn't know all that. But here i am now, telling you all this.

You mean the world to me.
You mean EVERYTHING to me.
But here you are doing things i never thought you would.

Let me know now how am i to trust you again.
How am i to believe all your words.
Cause seriously speaking, my trust for you is gone.
And my love for you is standing still.
I just don't know what to do anymore.


You hurt me so bad.
And i thought you were the one for me.
=_(

It's only been a week plus since i got together with Zam.
But oh boyy.. what a week it has been.
We've been fighting at almost every single day and every single minute.
Mostly about NOTHING. yes. About nothing. Ntahlah, it's dat he knew me as a girl with LOTS of GUY friends. And dat i like to joke around with colleagues.
He knows that very much. Cause before i was with him, he always sees me laughing and joking with colleagues. And he respected me for it. Cause he said no matter how, i still know my boundaries. But now when we've been together, it seems dat everything i do is the biggest mistake ever.

Just talking to a guy colleague will spark the fire to argue. Haiz.
Sometimes i just dnt know how to convince him dat i'm no longer fooling ard.
Cause it can be seen clearly EVERYWHERE,dat i'm attached to him. But yet, he still choose to believe his eyes and ears. Instead of believing me.

But for now, lets just let it all go.
Cause it's still early in the r'ship. But i just hope this won't continue on any longer.
Cause my heart has it's limit. And i really hope he doesn't waste it.


"I used to be a player, but that was then. Believe me when i say i love you, ONLY YOU."

Oh my.. It sure has been a long time since i've updated..
Sorry guys.. Too busy werking lahh.. =)

Sooo.. story now.. I'm attached. With this guy i know from work.. I tink if i show u guys his pic, u guys might say he looks so damn familiar.. Cause he used to act in "ANAK METROPOLITAN". lol.
I just hope this is the last time i have to go thru the process of dating.. Cause i'm seriously tired of changing guys again and again. Dats y b4 i was with Zam, i already said, "NO more LOVE for now. I'm concentrating on my list of achievement.. and nobody is stopping me."
Even tho i'm with Zam now, nothing is still stopping me to get what i want..
So far, things are going smoothly.. Lets just hope things dnt go off track..


I'll try my best to update every now and den..
But since i've started werking at ZOUK, time is just not of the essence for me.
So we'll see, if i have time.. i'll update.. if not.. den just wait lorr!!!
lol.


Till next time!
=)