((THIS IS A RE_ENACTION OF SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED A LONG LOONNGG TIME AGO.))
"WA SAPA LU SAPA! LU BERAK SEPAH-SEPAH!!"hahahaha.. i was taught how to say this by a 6 year old girl. she said to me "kakak robot, ikot Bear2 ehk." and there she went shouting at the top of her lungs,"wa sapa lu sapa! lu berak sepah-sepah!".. Sumpah i cannot tahan and i laughed till my stomach hurts. Then suddenly she said, "Ok. your turn." huh?? serious kapee?? and there she went on, saying if i don't say it she will tell her darling uncle (a.k.a Gemok) that i bully her. WAHLAOOOO!! This little girl bully me siaaa..
buey tahan ehhh.. she kept pestering me to say it, and when i did finally say it, she said i wasn't loud enough. she said i must be loud enough until everybody in the block can hear me.. WHAT THE!! hahahaha.

Me: cannot lah.. later police catch me.
Her: where gott? if police come you shout at them what i teach you lah..
Me: NAK MAMPOS! tk balik modal aku masok jail free2.
Her: Bear2 bilang abg Rizal eh?? *starts shouting* ABAAAANNNGGGG RRRIIIZZZAAAALLLLL!!!!
Me: ok! ok! i'll say it.. ughh.

And i said it.. Loud enough so that she won't whine and say its not loud enough. I looked at her and she was smiling so happily.. (mcm dpt gi Disney Land pulak)..
ANNNNNNDDDDD.... out of nowhere... the uncle (a.k.a GEMOK) came into the living room bursting into laughter. WAHKAOOOO!! Gf kau kene bully kau ketawa kan aku ajee?? sungguh tak berhati perut kamu... YAK-DUSH! *kicks him in the tummy*
And i swear, ever since that day.. that's the 1st thing she'll ask me to say whenever i see her.. LoL.

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Oh yeah..
You must wondering.. "Kakak robot?? ape binatang sak tu kakak robot??" I will tell you but be WARNED!should there be anyone who laughs at me or call me that after i wrote it here, you will be automatically be dead at sun-down. ( This is real. If you treasure your life, keep your mouth SHUT!!)

Okk.. again..the name surfaced from this cheeky 6 yr old girl nicknamed, "Bear-Bear". It was just in the starting stage of our relationship when i gt to meet this fat girl. She bullied me from the 1st time she knew me. Kept ordering me around without knowing my name. Then one dayyy, her gundu uncle asked her..

Gundu Uncle: Bear, name kakak ni sape??
Bear2: aahhh.. ntah.. bear2 pun tak tauu..
Gundu Uncle: laa.. bear2 main-main dgn kakak ni abeh bear2 tk tau name kakak ni sape?
Bear2: BEAR-BEAR TAK TAU LAAAAAHHH!!! ( she gets cranky easily)
Gundu Uncle: Ok..ok.. bear2 nk panggil kakak ni ape? tapi name dia kak yana tau..
Bear2: Taknak! nama kakak ni "KAKAK ROBOT".
Me: huh?? asal kakak robot??
(at this point of time Gemok was too busy rolling on the floor and laughing till death. Grr. I wish he did die.)
Bear2: pasal gigi kakak ade benda kilat2 tuuu.
Me: *trying hard to hold back the tears* ooohh.. k..

and i just fled.. Gemok by now was beyond control.. and at the verge of breathing his last..((sakit je hati.. grrr))
but since that day things only got worse.. not better.. read-on..

so since the debut of my new name, i've been called by that name mostly by the fat girl and Gemok's mum. Gemok's dad was kind enough to try to say my name everytime he talks to me, but at times he just can't help himself and "terlepas" the word robot.. and it even came to the extend that even nenek calls me that! and some of Gemok Aunts as well. *sakit nya hati ku.. mendengar kata tu..*
but waiitttt.. as if "Robot " wasn't bad enough.. my name was saved as "Robert" in Gemok's mums hp. YES!! ROBERT AS IN A GUY?? GUY NAME?? PAHAM??!! wahlaoooo! is there no end to my sufferings?? (cheh2.. mcm paham).. and because of that,my pride has been terribly bruised.. haaaaaa.. i don't want to live anymore... waaaaaaaaaa.. *sobbing hysterically*

oh well, all's well.. they are no longer calling me "ROBOT" (except for that cheeky little fat girl).
I am glad to say.. i am up and running.. LoL. AND MY NAME IS YANA!!

you might find it funny and might be laughing your asses off right now.. hell, i'm laughing too. but please read the warning. It may be funny.. but it carries real consequences to those who read it. don't say i didn't warn youuuuu... hehehe *evil grin*


a last note before i go: again.. SAPE2 YANG PANGGIL AKU TU, SUMPAH KEPALA KAU AKAN DIPANCUNG!!!!

Cheers :)
Bye!

I've been sick. Very very sick. So pardon for not blogging yesterday,as i spent the whole day sleeping. So to update.. Took a day off from painting the house yest.. oh wait, didn't i tell u we were painting the house?? hee. Yes,we painted the house a whole new colour.. A combination of light and dark blue.. and it turned out to be very very prettyy.. i so happy seyy.. Hahaha.
Yes.Yes. Aku pun cat skali. ape? tk caye? tk caye sudah ahhh!! Lols.



Well, now i'm at work creating trouble. Pagi2 bangla find fault with me, then now i "mogok" don't want do work. Boss f*ked the banglas upside down and told them not to disturb me. Ya lah.. people still sick come at ppl then shout2.

"Oi stupid! Yesterday i MC lah!" Gundu sia.

I've yet to do the survey that i've been tagged with. Later can?? hahs. Oh yah, Cik iqah... bout the cupcakes thingy.. I'm up for anything.. but as you can see from the cupcakes websites,most of them are not doing cupcakes for the moment as they are busy with kuih Raya. So how?? and sumore i can only do it nxt wkend as this wkend i will be in JB. again. (don't worry. Gemok's coming with me.. so i'll make sure he doesn't bother your Love ok?? hee.) But kan, kalau nxt wkend,i'm only available on Sat.. Cause Sun i have a mini celebration for Gemok and my Abg sdare. I'll be out somewhere with my Abg sdare and wifey.. and Gemok too of course.. So if u want, i can only make it on nxt Sat. how? how? we see how k. I want to do it so badly but with all the Raya preparations, it seems so messy. We'll see how lah kan..



And now, i'm back to trying to update my friendster again. As friendster has been kind enough to piss me off again. Best kan! Nak aje aku maki hamun, tapi ape kan daya, aku puasa.

siow ting tong ah!

((lyrics to the song in my blog))

"I LOVE YOU."
A sentence that has lost its wondeful meaning between us.
A sentence where once, we said with happiness and real love.
But now it's nothing more that just 3 words.

I am trying real hard to not let the tears flow down.But i have to do this. There's no other way.

Let us end this farce darling.
For i can no longer lie to myself anymore saying this can work out.
You have caused me dead..Inside and outside.
I know you feel it too.
It's just that you want to continue this facade.
but darling i don't see any reason why we should continue on with the show.
Baby,it's of no more use.
And you know that lying to ourself will only bring the biggest regret upon our lives.
Fighting every night before we go to bed really takes a toll on the heart.
And crying every single night only brings more hurt and more pain.
Sorry for saying this, but i feel that my hatred for you is now matched with my love for you.
And the worst thing is, the hatred is growing stronger each and every minute.
I so want this relationship to work out. But that's a lie i keep telling myself to see you happy. You too don't feel the love anymore don't you? Then what's stopping you?
I've made the first step yesterday. Now it's your turn to give me an answer.
Pls don't say "No, we can work this out".. Cause you know we can't.
Cause you know, i don't have the strength anymore to carry this hurt wherever i go.
Fasting months test your patience and endurance against all things.
Patience, Yes.
Endurance, Wearing thin.

I am not one,to lie to myself. Cause i know that's the biggest mistake ever. You know me better to know that my happy front is just a show.
You know i go to bed crying each night, praying to the 1 above to give me strength.
I know you do.I've seen you peeking through.
I wanted it so bad for you to come in and hug me tight and say it will be ok.But all you did was walk away.
So let me say it once again.

Let's end all this farce and just take it as "Kalau jodoh tak ke mana."


((You'll forever be a part of me.))

All this submission for approval thing at work has made me crazy and also made me realised,that without me knowing it.. i am too always submitting for approval of posting my pics in friendster.. Hahaha.. weird but true. I have to "submit an approval" to Gemok if i wanted to post pictures. To be more precise, pictures of me,alone. He would have a problem if i went and post my pictures without telling him. and funny as it is, it would cause us to fight. Realllyyyyy... tk tipu.. he would start questioning me with really stupid questions like, "biler u ambik gmbr nie??", "kat mane?" and other really really stupid questions. When sometimes the picture clearly shows that it was taken at home. Gundu kannn.. LoL..

i don't really mind the fact that he's being "possesive".. but sometimes too much possesive-ness can hurt the relationship. I remembered once when he said to me, that i was being utterly and ridiculously possesive and that was what made him cheat on me. And yet now, he's the one being possesive. LoL.. it does get irritating and annoying at times.. but it's just another way to show your love.. only sometimes he goes wayyyy out of line.
Oh well.. who am i to complain. at least i still have the love.. but... these days.. i feel the love diminishing.. yeah.. it's like we're being with each other just for the sake of it.. not for the love of it.. oh watever..i can't go brooding every single minute why my relationship is like this.. i've got much important things to worry about.. (i wish) haizzz..


Dillie dear, i definitely am sorry for not calling you up yesternight. i "ter-tdo" while watching some stupid show. LoL. Aniwaes, i am touched too by you cause you felt comfortable enough to confide in me. Even though we're not that close,and that we're only interacting through blogger and friendster. I'm glad you think i was worthy enough for you to share your problems with.
Linking to that, some people say that i'm being very "kpo".. if caring for a friend and lending a crying shoulder is a kpo.. then i admit i am one. but what one doesn't realise is, i am sincere in helping and hearing your problems out. i'm not being just a typical "kpo".. i have always been this way since i can remember.. i have always helped people.. (thats what my mummy said based on an incident that happened when i was in kindergarten.)
i just want to see people happy basically and thats why people find it comfortable to confide things in me. i'm not bragging.. just making myself clear to people who thinks i'm a kpo-chi.. LoL.

Pardon the long post.. but i just feel like ranting. considering the fact that my love life may just go bust at any time. i'm happy.. as always.. :_(

Pardon me for random postage. but i'm just pissed with one of the engineers. your fault and i get the evil eye from boss. early morning somemore! urgh! And to make matters worse,i feel like we're drifting apart.. Yet again. I'm just tired of everything. today is just not my day..

So pls, can i just go die?

Should i defend you even though u disappoint me too many times?? Should i even bother to uphold your name when u have already hurt me too much?? Naahhh.. You won't even know i stood up for you. So whats the point??

THE POINT IS!! You're gonna be my f*** husband in a few months time and yet now you've shown to my parents that you can't take care of me... How do you supposed they want to marry me off when u can't even give me 5 measly dollars for me to get to work?? UGH. I'm just wasting my saliva trying to talk to you.

Ok.. next topic.. Am i fat?? Cause seriously i think i am.. Reallllyyyyy!! Fat not because not fasting eh.. Just fat aje lah.. I mean... Others always say i'm thin.. but you people obviously haven't seen my old-old pictures kannn.. Kalau skg korang ckp aku thin, beh dulu aku ape? Aiyah.. Nvm lah.. I don't really care.. Fat or not.. If he doesn't love me when i'm fat, it's his lost lorrr.. not me..

I supposedly had ,what i wanted to blog about ,in mind just now.. but now.. ALL GONE.. Oh wells, i'll update later in the day.. After lunch maybe.. Toodles!