If this a test from him to know how strong my love is.. Then it shall be.
If this is a reality from him to know that i've lost.. Then it shall be.

I know i've got to be strong. I know i've got pick up the pieces & carry on with life. But this heart won't allow me to. It wants me to wait, wait & see what the great one above has in store for me. Oh yes, it hurts so much. & will keep on hurting.. And it seems that all i want to do now, is just sleep & never wake up. Because right now,my dreams are much better then reality. & to just grant me the satisfaction of my dreams is great enough.
I don't know how long it'll take, for me to let go, to get back to reality. And i don't know how long it'll take for me to feel my heart again. But what i know is, i'm thankful that i had a chance to feel his love.
I'm thankful that, at the very least, that he was once mine.

For now, just leave me be. Let me crawl back to bed, forcing sleep to come. Let me be, with all these tears.Let me live in my dream world, where everything is fine. Where i'm his arms again. Where we're happily together, with not a care in this world. Where my past keeps playing in my mind. Where Hadidi Fadzly & Ziyanah are together, FOREVER.