I am feeling very very stressed out right now. cause it seems that whatever decisions i'm about to take has already seemed like a bad decision even before getting it done.. I've got an interview tomorrow & it already has gotten the Love to worry unnecessarily. & the plans for me to further my studies? He doesn't seem so approving of that either. I know he has my best interests in heart & that he's worried that i'll run off with some other guy.. but hey, you've gotta have a little faith in me Love. I know it's gonna be time consuming & we'll be meeting each other less, but that doesn't mean that it's the perfect reason for me to run away to some other guy right? I've told you this before & i'll gladly repeat it again. "I WILL ONLY LEAVE WHEN YOU GIVE ME A REASON TO." Soooo what are you so worried about? I know.. i know.. Even i am worried by the thought that you'll be continuing your studies next year, but at least i know it's for the best. for OUR future. But please Baby.. put a little more effort in trusting me.

I've got to do this now. Or else i will never do it. I need your support on this Baby, & i hope you'll be there behind me every single way. It's gonna be a tough journey, but TOGETHER, we'll make it through. Just think of what we have planned all these while, coming true. Just think Baby. Please.

My head is killing me & i feel like i'm about to cry anytime. Because if
only planning has already made it so tough, i wonder if i'm able to make it all
the way through. All i know is i've got to do it. I can't disappoint my mum
again. I've done enough to her & now it's time for me to release her
pains.