My life is spiralling out of control. & it seems like there's nothing i can do but just sit & watch it destroy itself. One after the other it comes into my life. Making it seems like my luck has really left me hanging. From love life, to career. It all seems to come all at the same time.

First, i almost ended it off with the person i love. Then i was given a warning letter just because of taking mc. And i was later given a verbal warning from my captains because they said i was giving out free drinks to my friends when my friends clearly bought the drinks themselves. Den i got myself into deep shit for kissing an ex in front of hubby. And nowwwww!! I'm a suspect at work for pocketting tips money! WTF!

It just seems that someone is hating me and is trying to ruin my career. I just dnt know what to do anymore. I'm not sad because of what's happening now. I'm just sad that i'll no longer get to work there and be with the people who i consider my family now. It's just breaking my heart.
And what with things with hubby now.. Urgh! Things are just getting from bad to worse. And i'm really on the verge of trying to kill myself. It just hurts so much right now.


Ahhh fuck it. I'm off to get somemore drinks. And i'm gonna get myself wasted. How i wish i won't wake up. =_(