And i'm not going to come crawling back into your arms just because you asked me to. No boy. I'm making a decision & i'm sticking to it. I'm saying goodbye to the beautiful thing we once had. Even if it kills me, i'm letting go. Cause i'm respecting your wishes. And there's nothing more you can do to make me come back to you, cause i'm done.I'm done with the heartbreaks, with the hurt. It's time i learn to fend for myself. It's time i be strong. And if by letting you go is the only way, then i shall do it.It hurts me doing this. And i'm crying as i type this out. But i've had enough. I really have. It's just too much for me to bear. And it's killing me bit by bit inside. I'm sorry. I really am.But it's killing me letting you go, as much as it is for you seeing me walk away.


Alfian bin Haidzer, I have never loved you less since the day i fell in love with you. In fact, i have loved you more & more each day. But i've had enough. Enough of trying to reassure you that everything is going to be ok, when i am not too sure myself. I've had enough of pretending it's all ok, when it's hurting badly inside. I've just had.. Enough.No, this is not goodbye. This is just the beginning. The real test, to see whether our love is strong enough.Like you said,

"If it returns, it's meant to be yours."

So we shall see.

It's tearing me apart letting him go. But this is something i have to do to prove that love does exist. We ended even before we started, and it hurts. =_(