I couldn't believe that i slept for the whole of my off day yesterday!! lol. I guess that long sleep was payment for those long hours of not sleeping. Can't blame me. I slept for only 2 hrs+ on Mon morning only to wake up at 7am to go to work at Bbygirl's place. And den after that i went to Bugis to just walk ard & shop for some stuffs. & off i went again to work at Zouk. And i only reached hm at 4am. And i guess i slept all the wayyy.
I woke up ard 1am (Tues.), bathe & lazed ard in bed watching cartoons online. And i'm still wide awake right now. Lol. But it was refreshing. Having to sleep with no one disturbing or having to wake up to go to work.
I woke up to dozens of miss calls & msgs,mostly from Bby. hee. Wanted to reply but felt i shouldn't cause i would be disturbing their sleep.

I've got a jogging session later at 6. Yes. a JOGGING session introduced by Zouk. & it's compulsory. Grr. For those who knows me, knows that i am not one to exercise. And with this jogging session being compulsory, i don't have a choice do i? I'm guessing that i'll be jogging while holding on to my asthma spray in one hand. Hahaha. I hope my asthma don't come back tho.


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Do you know how it feels to be waiting for something, only to feel like it doesn't even exist? Like as if you're waiting for something that you know is not gonna happen? Haiz. That is how i'm feeling with Haziq's situation right now. I haven't got any news about him yet. Not from frens or family. It seems like i'm just waiting for something useless. I wish i could say i've moved on from Haziq or that he's not in my thoughts anymore. But i just can't. Cause we left things off, hanging.
And i don't like it when things just get unattended and there's no answers. I need answers. I need the truth. But it seems so god damned impossible with him being inside & i can't even visit him. Haiz..
He's pratically 1 of the main reasons why i'm holding back on "LOVE". Why i'm scared to be in love again. I just wish i could get an answer. Soon. Or it's gonna really take an impact on my love life.



Bby, i know u'll be reading this. And i know there's little i can do to reassure you that i want only you. I'm trying my best here, to overcome what i'm feeling. To take a dive & try it out with you. You & i have the same thoughts & emotions going through us. We're both scared history will repeat & that we're still hung up over our exes. But believe me when i say that i am trying my very best to make this work. Haiz. Only that maybe, i need a little more time. A little more time to settle my prob with Haziq.
A truth i can't deny though, i've fallen for you. And it's growing stronger. =)