So u've been a silent reader all these while huh Zam? And u only read bout me saying "I HATE YOU"? How bout the part where i wrote bout how much i loved u? About how i wanted to make u my HUSBAND? about how i couldn't forget you? Did u read all that?

Yes, i did write i hated you.. cos i was sad.. i was angry.. I was angry u had moved on n left me waiting for you.. I was pissed dat u lied to me. I was angry cause i couldn't be with you anymore.
Do you know how every nite i go to sleep listening to "ALWAYS BE MY BABY" over and over again? Do you know dat every nite i cry myself to sleep thinking bout u, wishing u were here with me? Do you know all that?

Zam, u stole my heart.. You meant the world to me. I loved you much more that i loved that idiot.. And all i could do is think of u. But u nvr tot of dat.. Just because i wrote down i hate u, u said i was being hypocritical? It was all written in a moment of anger. In a moment when i felt i was betrayed.So pls understand.


No matter how i try, i still keep thinking about u. I still keep wishing that we were back together again. But it seems that u have moved on with ur life. It seems that u've replaced me. And all i can do now is just cry myself to sleep,keeping this hurt all to myself. I am no longer the "TAZZY" ppl once knew. Cause i'm now hung up over u. And it's gonna take a long time for me to forget u. I wish i knew how to forget u.. But a part of me doesn't want to let u go.. Cause it's like forgetting who i am.


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I just got back from the hospital after spending 1 whole day in the ICU. A manager from work was caught in an accident and is now in critical condition. Even though i not that close to him, but i still felt the pinch. Cause he was a good man. And he really didn't deserve to have this happen to him. I'm going back down der 2moro after work. And i'm hoping and praying that his condition will be much better 2moro.
Haiz.


SAM SAIMON, I'm here praying for your fast recovery. I'm here praying that u'll wake up soon and see how many ppl still care about u. Wake up pls. And get up and about, & start disturbing me again. It was only a few days ago that we laughed together caused u called me "MOMOK".
Get well soon. Pls. We, ZOUK, need you back. Pls.