What? You read my blog only to tag "......." ??? AARGHH!!
God damn it!
i just don't know anymore.. I'm torn apart.. From wanting to love you and wanting to let u go.. I still love you.. Like i did before.. But i don't know why my mouth can't find the words to say it to you..Maybe it's because i see that you have moved on.. Maybe also because i know it won't be the same anymore.. I know you have started getting to know girls.. And that hurts.. I know i've hurt you too.. But i just can't keep it to myself.. I admit.. I check your frenster.. Every single day.. Cause i feel jealous when another girl adds u... Or when u add other girls.. There! I confess... I still check ur frenster..

I just can't be with you while you're contacting other girls.. You know my jealousy.. it gets way overboard once it started.. And it has begun..

I tk tau lah Rizal..I seriously tak tau.. I work almost everyday.. 24 hrs.. Just to take my mind off u.. But i can't.. Even at work, i still think of u.. I still talk about u... I still talk about how we were supposed to get married..
Right now, right here.. I'm crying as i type this.. Cause things have really hit me hard.. How things have changed btwn us.. How it all changed within a blink of an eye.. I have begun to drink again.. Just to get myself to sleep without crying. I still tink of u at night.. Cause where i'm facing is the number, "3003" on my wall. Pictures of u and me, all over my room. I can't bear to take them down.. Cause it reminds me of our sweetest memories..

Help me Rizal.. Cause i seriously don't know what else to do.. I seriously can't go on like this anymore.. Cause one day, it will really take it's toll. I'm trying my very best to try and take it all.. But i don't know how long it's going to last.. Cause right now, I'm feel like it's almost time to end my life..

"I just wanna say i'm sorry for doing all this.. For changing.. For making you change.. I just don't know what else to say,other than "I'M SORRY." "