You guys know the old reality tv show "The Swan"?
yeah..
there was a rerun just now..
and i watched it..
how i wished i could be on that show..
serious.
I want everything to be perfect.
Obviously we all know dat nobody's perfect..
But i mean perfect as in my body.
i wanna get rid of my stretch marks.[from my pregnancy]
i wanna get rid of my bulging tummy.
and get bigger breasts..
haha..
Why?
cause i want my husband to not leave me..
we have heard stories bout how when a woman doesnt bother bout her looks,
and suddenly her husband is out looking for younger,attractive woman.
donno why i suddenly tot of that.
Mayb now dat i'm getting married,
it seems dat more weird things are getting in my mind.
I just want my husband to love me.
i know Gemok does.
But its just a precaution.
I'm happy with the way i am actually,
its just watching that show got me thinking bout stupid stuffs.
i am seriously being stupid.
A guy shud love me for the way i am, not the way i look..
But hey, dnt tell me u've never tot of changing urself for ur guy right.
U'll be lying if u say u never tot of dat,at least once.
Well watever.
ok.
Now is exactly 5.15 am.
AM!!
i'm sleepy but i cant bring myself to sleep.
i havent slept from yest.
so its been 2 nites and 1 day since i've slept.
maybe its because he's not ard.
i've gotta change..
i cant expect him to be with me 24/7.
Its all his fault.
haha..
He made me miss him so much.
and he's not coming back till monday.
damn!
i am seriously in for a bad case of "MISSING-itis".
as if there's such a word.
Hahaha..
alright..
alright..
i know i'm killing you guys with the same old thing bout me missing him..
i'm gonna go now..
gonna watch a bit of tv..
den go to sleep..
maybe i'll just sleep on the couch.
too lazy to go to my room.
Gd morning ppl!
Time to wake up!
Hahs!
Cheers!
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I've withstand the harshest pain & hurt a human can get. My weakness is love.
And i'll do anything for the people i love. I've been told that i can be intimidating, but at the end of the day, i might just be your best friend.
I do not wish to hate but if i've been hated, i'll be more than please to return the favour.
Simply said..
I'm known as P G Tazzy Yana or Tazz. I'm 22. I have 1 daughter,ZAPHIA. I'm a part of P G.
And i'm happy with my life.