I'm still giving it my all. I'm never backing down.
Cause i know it's all gonna come good one day.

I made this oath, a solemn swear to my beautiful baby, to be by his daddy's side. To keep fighting, no matter what. To keep loving, no matter how.

Someone once told me, "Fight for it if you believe. Even if it comes close to death, fight for it. For it'll only come once."

So here i am. Fighting on & on. Even when it hurts. Even when it's tearing me apart. Even when it's killing me.

Just, give me time n i'll show it to you n the world.

Where does our conscience lies? When does it come knocking?
Isit when you've seen how broken down the person you love is?
Or when you see them thriving without a care for you?

Apparently, it doesn't come hitting hard. N the person who gets broken, has to suffer in silence. Praying everyday, for it to get better quickly, without ever giving up hope.

They'll be like a fool, like an idiot taking it all in, knowing it'll all come to an end. But never knowing when.
All they can do is cry & cry, praying relentlessly, smiling unwarily not knowing how it's gonna end either.

And be it good or bad, all they do is still accept it in them. Full of optimism. Knowing love will triumph it all.
Knowing that one day, the one that they love, will love them like before.
Just waiting. For the day to come.

I knew this would happen.
I knew you would return it back to me.

At the very least, i stayed true. I got emotional because i was thinkin of you.
All my mistake was, i got too carried away.& it was all because i was thinkin of you.

=_(

What exactly do people get by being manipulative?
By lying? By hurting the people who loves them?
Satisfaction? Joy? A sense of accomplishment?

Why can't it be simple enough to understand, to get through. That all we gotta do is love them back the way they love us.

It's still a mystery to me, as to how all this started. How all this will end.
I'm living it a day at a time, threading a very thin line. Carefully picking the words to say. Carefully never to make the same mistakes again.
Because this time if he leaves, it'll be the end of me.


I pray that 1 day you'll see all this clearly.
I pray that 1 day you'll see how great this love is for you.

Till then, I Love You Mohamed Haffiz.

2 beats. Too soon. I'm too terrified. Not knowing what i have to do. Not knowing that i've gotta make some moves. I'm too scared. Too terrified. =_(

I've got a million worries in my mind.
A million questions in my heart.
I don't know if i can make it through. I don't know if i'm strong enough.
It's starting to scare me. Starting to make my tears drop.
The pressure is setting in. Making me truly wonder, if i'm really strong enough.
I'm too scared. Too terrified.
God help me.
=_(