One year later & where are we? I'm sorry but i've got to say this.
NO WHERE.

I'm not pushing or begging. But what exactly happened here? I seriously have no fuckin clue. I'm just too lost, trying to think straight, trying to get those dark clouds outta my head.

I'm breaking down, bit by bit. It's getting a lil too much. A little more than a little too much. & i'm terrified.

I can't go on like this. Wishing for the dead to be alive, wishing it was all just a dream. Cause no matter where i turn, it keeps hitting me in the head, telling me to wake up. To open up my eyes & see what's going on. I am seriously losing my mind.

Something has got me thinking. That maybe, i fell for you too fast. Because in the first place, you never really wanted me in the first place. So why am i so sure that you're not still thinking that way.

Oh fuck it. I'm getting way too over my head. In need of those sleeping pills to get me to sleep & to get this bloody thoughts out of my head.