Broken.

08 October 2010 1:07 AM

It has always come to a point when, everything was fine, was going good and then suddenly, somewhere, somehow things start to fall apart again. Life has to always be this cruel, doesn't it?Life has to always be the one to come knocking you off your feet, to make you realise that this wasn't the way things should be. That you should always be on your guard no matter what.

So tell me now, where & when does this all stop? The day we got our hearts really broken? The day we breath our last & leave this earth? When? Because right now, i really do not know till when i can endure all this pain . Till when i can keep all this within me.

I did not plan to keep all this from him. To keep all this pain, hurt & disappointment from him. But what else can i do? I've hurt him enough & if i am to keep my promise, to want to see him happy, then this is what i should do? Or shouldn't i?
I'm at a lost right now. Not knowing what to do. Whether i should just keep it all bottled up or just let it all out.
The fear of me destroying this love, if i let it all out, is too great for me to even imagine. But on the other hand, how much longer can i keep it all inside of me, without destroying myself? All i can do right now is pray to my lil angel up above to help me through this hard, dark days.

`Hey my lil angel up above, help guide mummy down here will you?

Help mummy make the right choice. Help mummy be strong.

Help mummy & daddy go through this all, will you?

Help make our love for each other grow stronger.

Cause i don't think your daddy really knows to what extent mummy loves him.

But hey, just whisper into his ears when he's sleeping, tickle his ears

& let him know how much mummy loves him k. *wink*

Make him remember you.

Make him remember our love.

Make him remember the life we wanted to build together.

You're the one i keep thinking of at night. Loving you each & every single day,

just the way i love your big sister. Grow big & strong my lil one.

We'll meet soon enough. And when we do, mommy promise to never let you go.

I PROMISE.

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I've withstand the harshest pain & hurt a human can get. My weakness is love. And i'll do anything for the people i love. I've been told that i can be intimidating, but at the end of the day, i might just be your best friend. I do not wish to hate but if i've been hated, i'll be more than please to return the favour. Simply said.. I'm known as P G Tazzy Yana or Tazz. I'm 22. I have 1 daughter,ZAPHIA. I'm a part of P G. And i'm happy with my life.

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