I just can get to sleep without clearing the air between me & Kykie. I've been crying non-stop from just now & poor BbyLove is worried.

Maybe my words were too harsh. Maybe i hurt you. Maybe i was being unreasonable. Oh wait, i know i did all that. And i'm sorry. I'm just at a lost as to what to say to you anymore.. because you seem to be taking it so badly. You even changed your links in ur blog. Yes, i did noticed.
You said that you didn't expect it to be me of all people. And that it hurt. All just because i said something which was true? Why? Just because you and i have some sort of understanding? Yes, we do have an understanding between each other & we are close. But it wasn't wrong of me to point out your mistakes, was it? I'm not trying to win anything here, but i feel that you're being unfair. Say whatever you want to the others, cause i know they'll be backing you in an instance & making me the bad one. (i'm not stereotyping you others, but i've known each & every one of you well enough to be knowing ur next move.) I've been through all that before & i'm sure as hell am prepared to go through it again.
As quoted by you, "Why must it be my time where i texted him and end up bkn catchup kykie dgn diye?" What do you mean "your" time? If you really wanted "your" time with him, then shouldn't it be just you and him to meetup? And why was i the one taking all the blame when the others talked to him too? Yes, we maybe went overboard by talking about past memories, some of which that you weren't included. But it seriously wasn't intentional. And you said that we ignored you & you felt like as if you were talking alone. Seriously, again we didn't notice & it wasn't intentional. You could have just let it go because knowing us well, that is how we are. I'm trying to look out for all of you here, but it seems that all i keep doing is being the bad one.. And all because i'm always the one who dares to say it to your faces. Am i at fault for trying to be true to myself and to you guys? Well if i am, then i'm sorry. I've heard from one of us, saying that we shouldn't go around saying things we don't like about others behind their backs, instead we should tell it straight. And i agree completely. But with the rate you guys are going, always taking it too deeply.. i doubt that it would be a good thing to do.

Each & every one of us hurt the other without us knowing. Yes, i did hurt you. But you did hurt me too. These things just happen. No one can predict it. But to go & change every little thing that meant alot to the other, is just too much. Maybe it's nothing to you that you changed your nick, that you deleted off the PG part & that you changed my link position. But it does mean alot to me. Just by doing that, i could have already guessed where your heart lies. I said guessed, not known.. so pls.. correct me if i'm wrong.

Am i taking this overboard? I guess i am in a little sort of way. Because i didn't expect you to react this way too. Guess life is always full of unexpected things huh? Easier said than done, i'm still sticking to what i said to you ealier on, regarding the outings and all. Call me childish, immature or over-reacting. Call me whatever you want. Because for all i care, i'm tired of being the "bad" one. I'm gonna just lay low for now, & let things be. I know when i'm needed & i will be there. And i am still here each and every single moment, if any of u need me. I'm just too weak to stand up & fight anymore. I'm just too weak to correct each and everyone of you, when in the end, i will always end up the bad one. So there.

Let it be clear amongst you & me, Kykie, that i hold no grudges against you. Nor am i hating you. I still love you as i ever did. I'm still here for you whenever you need me.
PG for life? TILL THE DAY I DIE.