Friends. Some that sticks with you till you're grey & old. Some you meet & know, even if it's for a short time. I've gained myself quite a number of close friends whom i've already regard as family. I've even lost quite a number too. But it is with their memories that kept me laughing & crying the whole day through, reminiscing the good & bad times. And even if some of my friends have turned into my enemies, i still thank them. Thank them for entering my life, for teaching me what i should & should not do. But just like everyone, not every friendship goes through a smooth course. You have arguments, confrontations & even hatred amongst one another. And i am not one to deny that even i have troubles with some of my friends. But in some cases, i just do not understand why it happens or why they are acting that way. At times, all i can do is, just let it go & smile. Pretend like it doesn't bother, when truthfully it's hurting like hell.
But for 1 thing that is sure, I'm just not the type of person to keep quiet when a friend behaves rudely. Like for instance, something happen today that really irked me.

I know you miss him & you want to spend time with him, but what makes you think that we don't miss him too? And for you to go sulking like that is just way too much, Actually, i don't mind if you want to sulk, but for you to ignore us when we call you countless of times is just way too rude. I mean, would you like it too if you called someone over & over again & they would just ignore you? I know that we maybe had made you feel left out just now, but sulking over that matter? Oh godd.. Too childish. But what can i say, that is who you are & i know there's nothing more i can do about it. Like you've said before, we are all in the "ape nak jadi,jadi" mode.. sooo, i guess you're right. I'm too sick & tired to get involve in any of this anymore. If you think you're the only one with problems, then guess again. All of us have problems, but at the very least most of us don't drag it along when we're meeting up. Cause we know that every meetup is precious & to spoil it is just not the way to go. So please, don't go around saying your head is full of problems, when each & every one of us has them too. I don't know what else to say to you, but lets just hope that you do something about ur attitude. I mean, even i'm not perfect & i know i've hurt some of you at some point, but i try to make up to it. I try to change & make things better for everyone. Haiz. I am still here for you if you need someone to talk too. But i've already sensed that i'm not needed. So hey, whatever...

I seriously think that there is no more point for me to go on & on. Cause i've realised that people only need you when they are in deep shit or in sadness. But when everything else goes well, you're just not on their minds anymore. Whoever said life was easy, was certainly a big time idiot.

I wishhh..