Today.. is just not my day.. fuck.
MAJOR major misunderstanding with Bby Love.. Disappointed with one of my fellow P Gs. Haizzz.

You were the one that made me smile all along. You were the one that i thought was different. But in a blink of an eye, you took it all away. Yes, i sounded heartless.. i sound cruel.. But tell me how could i cry and be weak when i know you need me. When i know i have to be strong for you?! I guess, all along you never really understood me. You never really knew why i was doing all those. I had to act tough, act as if it never affect me, because i know myself. I know that I'LL only make matters worse & that is not what i want. I know i've gotta act tough, cause you need me. But if to you, it still seems that i don't care.. den so be it. If to you, it's all such a waste changing, then go. Since now you choose to be who you were before, a heartless jerk, then go. Go away & never come back. Cause it only shows that i've failed in making you believe in love. I've failed in trying to show you, that YOU WERE THE ONE WHO WAS MAKING ME SMILE ALL ALONG.
Bby Love, thank you. & Good bye. =_(


To make things worse, P G is also falling apart..

P G is turning 1 in less than 24 hrs time. And it marks a very very special day 4 me. Cause P G is undeniably one of the most important things in my life. And for YOU to come and say "Why shud we celebrate it? It's not like it's anyone's birthday whut.", just breaks my heart.. P G means nothing to you does it? If it doesn't, then stop calling us your family..
In the first place, why the heck do you call us your family and then say all those shits? It fucking hurts.
You said that we always fight, we always hate each other and i'm sure Dee has told you what i've said to her.. Now, i want you to come and bring me a Family that never fights & never hated one another before. Until the day you find me that family, then that will be the day that i declare P G closed. And what do you mean we hate each other?? Tell me specifically now, who hates you? Cause as far as i know, whatever differences each of us have or had, we've already cleared it out. We ALWAYS manage to clear it out. Maybe it's you who hates us, not us hating one another. Maybe it's you who feels that you don't belong, that's why you say all those shits. We never hated each other, we only argue. And to any sane people in the world, that is obviously a normal thing too. But if to you it is such a big thing, then why bother to be with us or make gatherings to reunite in the first place? Why say you miss us? Why do you even bother with P G in the first place? Why babe? Why?
Get hurt all you want, cause i don't fucking care anymore. You've hurt me enough when you said, "Buat pe nk celebrate? Bukan sape2 nye birthday pe."
I've had enough.


I'm crying my eyes out.. cause it may just be the day i lose Hadidi Fadzly, the LOVE of my life.