How could i say i'm disappointed, broken & crushed when you're already a part of my life i call my "FAMILY"?

It's wasn't a matter of whether the issue is important or not, but you keeping things from me just crushed me. You gave reasons saying i used to have a story with that person or that i might condemn that person, but have you ever thought that if you gave it a shot, that i might act differently? Seriously, have you? I bet not. You were one of my closest friends, but ever since you got affiliated with that person, you have always thought that i was the evil one, that i still hold grudges. Countless of times i've told you that i don't care anymore & that i've moved on, but you still decide to stick to your stubborn-headed self, and still decide to think that i would put you down. Tsk. tsk.
I'm not trying to create a fight or whatsoever, but it just hurts to know that i'm kept in the dark just because of your paranoia. Have you ever thought that because of your paranoia, that was what sparked the feuds we had? Sit down, give it a thought. Cause from my point of view, i've never had anything against you, but your paranoia and wild thoughts are the cause of our miscommunication. Maybe yes, in the beginning i had grudges. But i've already told you that i'm ok, that i've moved on.
Hey, you may never know dear, that maybe i could help you.. Maybe i could be lend you a shoulder to cry on. But (sigh)..

I'm just out of words to what to say to you. I just hope that you can open up your heart and see that i'm here for you. That i'm ok. That i only want the very best for you. Cause it's in my very interest just to see you happy. I'm still here if you need me.. I'm here, with open arms, waiting for you to come to your senses, for you to see that you are forever a part of my FAMILY.
Forgive me for writing all these down, but i'm just crushed over what has happened btwn us. =_(


Bby Love, i just can't stop missing you, loving you. Every single day i wake up, my first thought would be of you. I've gotten so used to waking up to seeing your face, that whenever i'm back home.. it just feels so damn weird. Fuck what anyone has to say. Fuck it if anyone has had enough of reading my blog about missing you. I'm nvr gonna stop saying i love you. Cause i really do. =)


For the P G Babies!!
P Gs official birthday is on 29th MARCH. So yeah.. come up with ideas or plans aite & let me know bout it. MUACKS!!