Woopedidodey. It's been a while since i've blogged. Not that i don't want to, but everytime i log in to blogger.. my mind suddenly goes into auto shutdown. And it seriously irritates the hell out of me. Because of the fact that i've got sooooooo many things to update but i just can't seem to put them into words. Grrr.

I guess the very 1st thing i've got to do is to apologize to Lynn & the other Zouk staffs for suddenly going MIA on em. Especially Lynn & Him.
To Lynn, I'm sorry if i've made you mad or if i've disappoint you in any way.. But i've gotta to go MIA to settle things and to get things going straight again. And don't worry, i'll try my best to be present for any Zouk outings aite.
And to Him, I'm sorry if i just left you hanging. And i know by now, u must be hating me so much. All i can say is i'm sorry Alfian. Sorry if i hurt you, sorry if i broke your heart. But i had to do it,cause i don't want to hurt you anymore. I had to put an end to all this pain & if by making you hate me is the best choice, then i had to do it. I did love you & i did want to try it out with you but i guess things changed.


I've guess by now, most of you should have heard that i'm already attached. Yesyes. Attached to the greatest gift, Hadidi Fadzly. And mind you, me getting attached to him was totally UNPLANNED. Seriously. He & me were only friends to begin with. A friend who i could talk to about anything, anytime. A friend who i had a crush on for a very very long time. And never would i expect that he too, would have feelings for me. And so, things happened. And we ended up confessing our feelings and here we are now.. Together. =)
I don't know why, but my feelings for him is much greater than Haziq & Alfian combined. Maybe because he knows me inside out and maybe because i have a great sense of trust in him.
But, only one thing is really bothering me now. The fact that he is still young and that he still has yet to start school again is really bothering me. Even tho i don't really tell it to him, but i sense that he knows. Cause he never fails to reassure me that he won't leave me. Pray hard that its true shall we?


I can't promise to update everyday but i shall try my best to update every now & then. Cause most of the time, i'll be at His place & logging on to the net is really not on my mind. I mean, why shud it be when you're having great fun cuddling up to your love one aey?
Till next time. =)