And just when i thought things were going smoothly, it just had to turn itself around and ruin it for me. Haiz.
Why? Why? Why?
Why can't i for once just find something that will make me happy and not change? Oh gosh.
I'm delusional right now. Always wishing for things i know could never happen. Always asking for the impossible. But what can i do? I'm on the verge of seriously giving up.. & if just one more thing happens, it will be the sign to tell me to stop & give up. I just can't go through all these anymore. It hurts too much. What with Haziq's situation still ongoing, now this? Urgh..! I seriously hate my life right now. It seems to be perfect, only to be in pieces behind closed doors. I seriously hope that history doesn't repeat itself. But somehow or rather, it already has.
Fuck it lah. Why am i rambling on & on here when i'm drowning in my tears.
The fact now is that, i hate my life. And i hate myself. Why? Because i made myself believe the impossible. AGAIN.
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.
I believe i'm the stupidest person alive right now for believing that it was my time. Tsk.