This goes out to "Hubby". (he knows who he is.)

Do you have any idea how i feel for you boy?
Any single clue?
I bet u don't.
Yes.. we're only starting & u're still scared. Scared the past would come back haunting.
Have u ever thought that maybe i was in the same position too?
Or have u ever thought whether is it fair for me?
You see me smiling, laughing all the time.. but do you know what's going on inside? Hurt & turmoil. All em shits.
Boy, i'm not forcing neither do i want to rush into things. But i just wanna reassure u.. that u're not the only one going through this feelings. I am too.
What makes u think i ain't scared of the past? I ain't worried the past would happen again?
I, too, am a human.. & i do have feelings too.
Truth be told, i am scared to get into another r'ship. I am scared it would end as soon as it started. And i wanna take things slow. But whenever i'm around you boy, i feel as if the world has been lifted of my shoulders. I feel like life is worth living after all. You took all my fears away & only would replace it with smiles.
Do you know how much you have occupied my mind, my daily life right now? Till now all i ever do is think of you. When u don't reply my msgs, my mind would just start going berserk thinking you've changed your mind.

These are RISKS. Risks in life that we have no choice, but to take. Only thing that we can take charge of is.. how we persuade it not to hurt our lives. Past & present can NEVER be the same. Past will forever be with you, teaching you a new lesson everytime. It's all up to you whether u want that lesson to be a good one or a bad one.


Boy, take ur time. I ain't pushing. Cause i'll still be here waiting for you. Cause believe me when i say this.. You already took my heart. =)