I'm not okay. No matter how i say i am, truth is i'm not. I've been spending way to much time at home, till mummy has start noticing. She even asked me where Bestie is, to which i will only reply. "She's busy with work." Haiz.
I'm assuming that Yat has found someone else due to his PM at msn. i'm abit sad that things never happened & also that maybe i was hoping to much from him.
Tsk.tsk. But every single day, the only person that i still keep thinking about is Haziq. I don't know why, or how. But he manages to still occupy my mind no matter how hard i try to forget him.
I also just found out that his brother also went in, so dats y the bro never replied my msges. Now i'm just waiting for Haziq's friend to msg me & let me know bout his outcome. I miss that idiot.

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I try so hard to control my feelings,control my emotions. But at times, it just gets out off hand.
Seeing couples around me is makng it much much worse. Sometimes i can't help but shed tears even in the train. I'm getting lonelier & lonelier as days pass by. and the only company i have is my laptop. Even my family is not much of a company due to the clashing of our times. The onyl bonding times i get with them is during my off days, but even that seems impossible as every weekend they'll be at JB. Haiz. Life just seems to get suckier & suckier each day. And i'm starting to hate waking up. Cause it seems my dream world is the only thing i look forward to each day.