One after the other. When will this hurt ever stop?
First it was Zam. Then now it's Haziq.
When i thought i could try to love another, he had to go away. Haiz.

Work has been tougher and tougher these days. I don't know why but i keep thinking of Zam every now and then. I've been keeping a lookout for him. Trying to catch a glimpse of him. Every time the clock turned 10.30.. i would be waiting anxiously. i would give all sorts of reasons to go down.. to go to nite spot.. to just see him. Why is it so hard for me to forget him? To let him go?
when he and me didn't even last that long...
Everyday at work, i smile.. i laugh.. just to forget him. But it seems so hard to do. Cause every single minute is spent tinking about him.tinking about all the fun stuffs we did together.. thinking about how he would come up to my work station and hug me from behind. All those things.. all those memories.. Just keep playing again and again in my mind.

Oh yah. Who is Haziq? He's dis 17 yr old guy i knew long ago. But since i broke up with Zam, i got closer to him. Closer in a sense that he was my crying shoulder. He was the one who could be ther for me at 4-5 am in the morning. But nw he's gone...
Haiz.

Maybe i'm not supposed to love at all. Cause everytime i start to love.. dey will go away from me.
Haiz.
I'm too depress to do anything. And it's gonna take it's toll soon. REAL SOON. =_(