Oh yah. Did i tell you that i went to Haziq's court hearing and ended up crying? lol.

We (Me & Dee) were a few minutes late for the hearing. Luckily when we reached,he wasn't there yet and they haven't star the hearing. Baby Dee was supposed to go to work but i wanted het to be there so instead she never went to work. I was so touched by what you did for me baby. Sacrificing something just to be there for me. Cause she knew i would cry.

So yeah, time passed and the hearing started, There HE was sitting in front of me, always turning behind to look at me. He kept doing sign languages which i swear i didn't understand. Tkmo ckp aku,even his best friend couldn't understand what he was trying to say. The only few times that i understood what he said was when he asked me why i wasn't wearing the shirt that he gave to me, and when he told me not to cry (when i was already crying). And also the part when he was about to be brought back in, he said "I LOVE YOU".
Haiz.
I was happy to see him, yet i was mad at him. Cause of what happened. Cause of what he did to me. My feelings were so jumbled till 1 moment i was crying & the next i was laughing. I hated him yet i loved him at the same time. But my hatred got the best of me. And i think he saw it. He saw my face and asked me y? All i did was shrugged. How i wish we could have some time and talk things out, and work what's best for us. So i know what to do next.
I'm still undecided on whether i should wait for him or not. Maybe after the 1st visit, when i can talk things out, then i will decide. So for now, I'm undecided. hahaha.


"I'm praying i don't have to go through what i did 6 yrs ago. Cause what happened then, was totally hearbreaking."