But neither am i saying i'm not happy being single.. Only dat i miss the cute smses, the hugs, the kisses,the pampering.. Oh. Just about everything when u're in love lah...
Ever since i started dating, i was always one who always got a replacement quick, even tho the recent r'ship just ended. Not to say i moved on fast or what.. But i guess i just couldn't bring myself to reject someone.. in other words, HURT SOMEONE. I couldn't bear the thought that someone would get hurt if i rejected them, so hence the reason why i got so many EXs.
Sometimes when i get to know a new guy, they'll ask me how many EXs i've got. And when i told them the number, 99.9% of them will get shocked and start labelling me a "PLAYGIRL". lol.
"Bkn aku nie playgirl, tapi aku tk sampai hati nk reject orggg.. Pahaaam?!" lol.
But this time, it seems that i've lost my touch. Maybe all those hurt have started to take it's toll. Cause seriously right now, to bring myself to love another is just so hard. A crush maybe, or even an infatuation. But LOVE? i just don't feel it anymore. And oh no, it's not bcos of wht Zam did to me, it's maybe because of what all my EXs have done to me. Cause after every breakup. i'll cry for awhile.. Be quiet for awhile.. but after that i'll be back to laughing & irritating ppl. So maybe all those hurt that i've kept so long has started to take effect. Hmmm.
People have always told me that i was a deep thinker. Always analyzing.. Always thinking. But these few days, i've started to think even deeper (is dat even possible? haha.). I've started to think about all my previous LOVEs.. my past experience. And i'm beginning to laugh at all those silly moments where i cried like mad to a guy asking him not to leave me. lol.
I'm weird. & i'm proud to admit it. =)
I shall stop all these unneccesary rantings & go to sleep now. Cause i'm scared i'll confuse you readers. lol. Don't worry tho, this is just abit of who i am. One day u'll know more, probably all. Till the next post, Have a great day ahead ppl & keep smiling. =)
"You could be just a crush or even the next LOVE, but for now.. all i know is i miss you boy. =)"
I've withstand the harshest pain & hurt a human can get. My weakness is love.
And i'll do anything for the people i love. I've been told that i can be intimidating, but at the end of the day, i might just be your best friend.
I do not wish to hate but if i've been hated, i'll be more than please to return the favour.
Simply said..
I'm known as P G Tazzy Yana or Tazz. I'm 22. I have 1 daughter,ZAPHIA. I'm a part of P G.
And i'm happy with my life.