Overheard my parents conversation. Mummy was crying.
They're planning to either put me on my meds back or send me to my Aunt.
I overheard mummy saying.. "What's happening to our daughter? Suddenly she became so withdrawn.. Always in her room crying, never eating. Her drastic change worries me."
And that was when daddy suggested to bring me back to my doc.. or send me away.


I don't know what's happening to me.
This sudden depression attack is making me lifeless.
I don't know why i'm pushing away the person i love.
And this love is not the love i've been having.
All these while, the love i've been having are only considered as flings.
But this love that i'm feeling now, is true.
Last i felt this way was when i was with Rizal.
But i don't know why i'm pushing him away..
I don't want to hurt him.
Because of my current lifestyle..
I don't want him to know what i'm doing right now..
I don't want him to know how i'm cruising thru different guys every day.


I want to be in his arms so bad.. But i don't want to hurt him.



I'm sorry Love. But i'm doing this so you won't get hurt anymore..
SO I WON'T HURT YOU.

I'm sorry.
:_(