I don't know why i'm crying at 2 in the morning when the day was fun, filled with laughter.. But here i am now crying, not knowing why.
I just got off the phone with Fadli, was laughing my butt off and now this.
I hate ths feeling. I hate these tears.
It dawn upon me dat i missed having sumone to talk to. I missed having nightly conversations with loved ones.

It suddenly hit me how i've changed. Drastic changes which couldn't be explained. In only a few mths, i have turned myself into sumone whom everyone hates,including myself..
Nights are spent outside, days are spent at work. I fill my time up only to avoid this feeling. And now it has come haunting.
I smile and i laugh. Only to be thrown off my tracks tonight. Why now?
I can't help but feel only pain in my heart. I try my best to love again, but love has only decided to hurt me.
I miss the touch,the voice,the talks.. I miss everything i went through as a couple. I don't miss him. I only miss the times. The things that we did.


I feel as though i'm screwing my own life. I'm making my life miserable.
Oh GOD, stop these tears flowing. Stop this heart from bleeding. For i can no longer take the pain.


FCUK this feeling. I hate it.