I can create lies.. I can cheat.. But there's one thing dat i can't lie.
I can't lie to myself.
I try and i try.. I keep telling myself. That i'm ok.. that i'm happy.. that i'm ME again.
But i just can't seem to believe myself. There's only 1 thing that i believe.
I HATE MYSELF.
All i do these days is cry.
I smile when surrounded by frens.. I laugh with them.. But when i'm all alone, tears flow without me summoning them.

Things have been getting worse and worse for me.
Stress mounting.. Pressure collecting.
At times, i feel like shutting my eyes and never ever opening them again..
For fear of being hurt.. For fear of all the troubles dat come.
I know running away from my prob doesn't solve anything.
But what can i do.. I'm too stressed out..
And those close to me knows what i'll do if i'm too stress out..
I just hope it doesn't happen again..
Cause going in and out of hosp is sure damn tiring..
Haiz..
Sumtimes i feel like giving up..
But sumtimes i feel like its worth living for..
Right now, i damn well feel like it's not worth living for..
Haizzzz..




Update again on my past wkend. Cause the stories to be told will make you say "YANA DAH GILA!!"
Lols.
Bye.