I really don't know what to do with my life anymore.. Guys i loved have broken my heart one after the other.. And every single time, i retaliated by going wild.. Sadly,that is what i'm doing now..
Haizz.. It has been very confusing for me.. I have trouble sitting at home.. Every night i feel like going out, eventhough i'm working morning the next day.. I just can't sit at home.. Sitting at home makes me daydream.. And from daydreaming i tend to think about past.. And that's when i become suicidal.. ARRRGGHH!!
Here i am at 8.30 in the morning, crying. I just can't sit at home.. It hurts too much.. Memories of him and me play still see us, laughing and joking on the sofa.. Him teasing me.. Making me angry..

I don't know when this heartbreak will end.. Cause i have no more strength in me to carry on.. All day i dream.. Dream of something that is never going to take place..
"26th January".. It was supposed to be the day where i became Queen for the day.. But all that has gone down the drain..

I just want to stop crying but the tears seem to have a mind of its own.. It's not letting my forget.. It's not letting me let go.. I hate it.. I hate everything.. Fcuk.


((Now, i spend my days hanging out.. Laughing.. But only to avoid all the tears at home.. ))


Fcuk all that and let me tell you bout someone.
The other day,I made frens with a chinese dude.. Not exactly pure chinese lah.. cause he speaks malay.. Blood mixture of Malay/ Eurasian & Chinese. "ROJAK" boy.. or "tattoo boy" as my mummy calls him.. Lols.. Eh Mr Chan, lapar uh! hahaha. Funny guy.. DOESNT SMOKE! (yes. i know..unbelievable kan..?!) But quite a shy guy.. Likes spending time at home ALOT. when i say ALOT, i really do mean ALOTTTTT!!! Lolx. Wanna see how he looks like?? hehehehe..

And now! Introducing the Tattoo boy! Mr DEXTER CHAN!! lol! (i know, i know.. picture quality sucks.. Bt wat to do.. the person sucks as well! hahah.. Main2 je lah pantat!)
Cute kan ni cina sesat??! Don't be scared of his tattoo.. Tu semua stick-ons.. hahaha.. No lah. And tolong eh, He's not a matrep ehh!!
Lol.. (Dex, i'm makin u famous.. Say "Thank you".. hahahahha..)
Bye all!