"I LOVE YOU."
A sentence that has lost its wondeful meaning between us.
A sentence where once, we said with happiness and real love.
But now it's nothing more that just 3 words.

I am trying real hard to not let the tears flow down.But i have to do this. There's no other way.

Let us end this farce darling.
For i can no longer lie to myself anymore saying this can work out.
You have caused me dead..Inside and outside.
I know you feel it too.
It's just that you want to continue this facade.
but darling i don't see any reason why we should continue on with the show.
Baby,it's of no more use.
And you know that lying to ourself will only bring the biggest regret upon our lives.
Fighting every night before we go to bed really takes a toll on the heart.
And crying every single night only brings more hurt and more pain.
Sorry for saying this, but i feel that my hatred for you is now matched with my love for you.
And the worst thing is, the hatred is growing stronger each and every minute.
I so want this relationship to work out. But that's a lie i keep telling myself to see you happy. You too don't feel the love anymore don't you? Then what's stopping you?
I've made the first step yesterday. Now it's your turn to give me an answer.
Pls don't say "No, we can work this out".. Cause you know we can't.
Cause you know, i don't have the strength anymore to carry this hurt wherever i go.
Fasting months test your patience and endurance against all things.
Patience, Yes.
Endurance, Wearing thin.

I am not one,to lie to myself. Cause i know that's the biggest mistake ever. You know me better to know that my happy front is just a show.
You know i go to bed crying each night, praying to the 1 above to give me strength.
I know you do.I've seen you peeking through.
I wanted it so bad for you to come in and hug me tight and say it will be ok.But all you did was walk away.
So let me say it once again.

Let's end all this farce and just take it as "Kalau jodoh tak ke mana."


((You'll forever be a part of me.))