Everytime something goes wrong..
its all my fault..
Its never anyone elses fault.
u find my smallest mistake..
But never see my biggest achievement..
when i clean the entire house..
i.e: mop the house..
:iron, wash, hang the clothes..
:clean every room..
:wash all the plates left by all of you.
:sweep the floors..
:cook for all of you.
And yet all that is never enough..
all i did was forgot to keep the vcds back in place and u shouted at me as if the house was a pig sty..
When in the 1st place,the vcds were alreadi in zikki's room b4 he left for camp.
When i had a job..
U complained that i wasnt helping at all..
i was always gone in the morning and would return late at night.
But wat do you mean i didnt help?
when u guys were happily snoring in bed..
hu was the one still awake at 4am, IN THE MORNING, washing the dishes..
Hangin the washed clothes?
Hu?
was it you?
nope!
it was me!
and i did all that when i was werking..
Now when i'm not werking cause of my stupid spine..
u still complain..
even when the house is absolutely, [GET IT?? A.B.S.O.L.U.T.E.L.Y!! ] clean..
you still pick a fight with me..
you never scold zikki that way..
its always me hu is the bad one..
u always say to zikki..
"Jgn jadi mcm kakak kau.. kakak kau tu da kena rasok setan!"
wat am i?
Deaf?
Zikki is always the good one..
no matter wat he did..
its always me hu get the blaming..
u always say its because of me he turns out this way..
when it was you who pampered him too much..
even now when u've found out he's been playing truant..
u say it my fault for defending him everytime..
for not letting you scold him.
i only defended him bout things dat didnt mattered much...
but when it comes to discipline, i never interfered..
and yet u say its all my fault..
When you came home today..
did you see that i've wiped the mirrors,glasses?
did you noticed i've mopped the floors?
did you noticed i've folded the clothes?
did you noticed that i've cook for you?
NO!!
U DIDNT NOTICE ANYTHING!
YOU NEVER DID..
SINCE I WAS SMALL..
YOUR ATTENTION WAS ONLY TOWARDS ZIKKI..
AND IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN EVER SINCE..
i never had your attention.
and u know i've lost his attention a long time ago..
just because you taught me how to be independent since i was small..
it doenst mean i dnt need u at all..
i am still your daughter..
i am still a little girl inside craving for her parents attention.
U never noticed..
Cause i didnt matter to you.
I may as well be dead then get my heart torn apart.
i tot we had each others back..
but now i realised..
it was only me hu had your back..
you were busy looking out for zikki's back.
Maybe its true what u and ayah said..
maybe i am not your daughter.
All i have now is you, Gemok.
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I've withstand the harshest pain & hurt a human can get. My weakness is love.
And i'll do anything for the people i love. I've been told that i can be intimidating, but at the end of the day, i might just be your best friend.
I do not wish to hate but if i've been hated, i'll be more than please to return the favour.
Simply said..
I'm known as P G Tazzy Yana or Tazz. I'm 22. I have 1 daughter,ZAPHIA. I'm a part of P G.
And i'm happy with my life.